
12th-November-2006
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Re: Jeremy Clarkson: Real men don't go home at 7pm | |
Heres another article, also from The Times, a bit older than the other, about another man that refuses to change into some kind of metrosexual modern man: Quote: Boyfriend behaving badly Missed weddings, forgotten birthdays, offended families — pity the woman who finds herself going out with CC Norton
It is hard to fathom how my last girlfriend stayed with me so long. It finally ended, after four years, when she came back from a work trip and asked me how much I had missed her. I paused, had a rush of blood to the head and replied: “Not a great deal.” It set in motion a three-day extravaganza of emotional turmoil that culminated in my final exit by e-mail — cowardly, yes, but practical.
As I said, IÂ’ve no idea how it went on as long as it did. I can only think that my ex was some kind of angel on a mission of extreme tolerance towards one destined to fall. I had become a stranger not only to her, but to the very idea of the balanced modern relationship.
My behaviour started to spiral out of control when I decided I wasn’t going to buy into the whole sensitive-modern-man persona. To me, it is simply a controlled experiment in male mendacity. Why should men be under pressure to show the “right” emotion, not the natural anger, lust and territoriality we feel from moment to moment?
I decided instead to live according to whatever feeling I was having, a slave to a selfish, roguish existence. It wasnÂ’t just about an unfulfilled love of French existentialism. I was genuinely fed up with screening my instinctive responses and pandering to a host of compromises. The result was personally liberating but disastrous for my coupledom. To mask my selfishness, I acted with an apathetic numbness that made me immune to the repercussions of my misdemeanours.
And they were many. One Saturday afternoon, I had to make a simple train journey from Charing Cross to Kent, where my girlfriend was a bridesmaid at a wedding. Her parents were waiting to pick me up from a country station — but I spectacularly failed to make it. I had been drinking all night, and though I had managed to dress in a morning suit, I was a shambles. I went for a couple of sharpeners with friends and somehow found myself accepting some drugs as a chaser. An hour later, I was wasted and incapable of communication. By the time I came to my senses, on the Sunday night, I had been registered as a missing person.
I did at least make it to the next wedding, although I mistimed my alcohol consumption so badly that I dislodged a pivotal pillar at the ice bar early on in the evening. Far too comatose to remember the ensuing commotion, I lay upturned like a beetle on five blocks of ice and a sea of half-drunk cocktails. Sadly, my girlfriend did not forget — nor did the aghast American side of her family.
There was a crescendo earlier this year when she found out that the girl I had painstakingly introduced to her for a ménage Ã* trois was actually a prostitute whom I had paid, and a disastrous moment at her parentsÂ’ house when I was overheard loudly demanding fellatio.
Another unfortunate incident occurred when I invited some friends round for an after-party at my flat. I happened to have invited one of their secretaries back for an after-party, too. When I failed to answer the door, they climbed over my back wall to glimpse their colleague, naked except for high heels, through the skylight. I once even slept with a transsexual in Bangkok because I was bored and couldnÂ’t be bothered to hunt down a bona-fide female.
Any moral dam of straw I built had been flushed aside. My rants against the commercial emptiness of St ValentineÂ’s Day were undermined by my forgetting my exÂ’s birthday. When I lost her job application on the Tube after someone knocked into me and the envelope was caught by a gust of wind and landed on the line, I accepted my need for a desperate escape. At that moment, I can honestly say I felt like the worldÂ’s worst and most useless boyfriend.
Surprisingly, most of my exes don’t hate me — at least not the ones who are still in touch with me. I have been accused of having deep psychological scars and issues for behaving the way I do, and have narrowly avoided being dragged to counsellors and psychotherapists on the wayward promise of changing. But why should I change? I am not unhappy. I’m just numb, indecisive and apathetic, like many males of my generation. Could it be that I am one of the few honest ones left?
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