KellyMac,
I am capable of very deep and intense emotions, and in fact my feelings have been so overwhelming that I thought I was mentally ill. Like Percy said, my feelings were too volatile and I was full of hatred that was like some caustic substance eating me from the inside. However I would rather brood over how much I hate everyone, obsess about death and/or cut on myself rather than hate some man for no good reason.

God, I hope I can love as deeply as I can hate.

Lately my emotions have nearly flat-lined compared to what they used to be. The calm coincides with my child coming into the world. She has given purpose to our lives (my husband and I) and we are a happy family. I know that doesn't say much about the depth of my feelings now, but I just can't say much more.